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Kamis, 04 Juli 2013

Lady Gaga Marry The Night




 When I look back on my life it’s not that I don’t want to see things exactly as they happened, it’s just that I prefer to remember them in an artistic way.
( ketika saya melihat kembali hidup saya itu bukan berarti saya tidak ingin melihat hal-hal persis seperti mereka terjadi, hanya saja saya lebih memilih untuk mengingat mereka dengan cara artistik )

 And truthfully the lie of it all is much more honest because I invented it. Clinical psychology tells us arguably that trauma is the ultimate killer. Memories are not recycled like atoms and particles in quantum physics. They can be lost forever.
( dan jujur kebohongan dari semua itu jauh lebih jujur karena saya menciptakannya. Psikologi klinis memberitahu kita dibilang bahwa trauma adalah pembunuh utama. Kenangan tidak seperti atom dan partikel dalam fisika. Mereka bisa hilang selamanya. )

 It’s sort of like my past is an unfinished painting and as the artist of that painting, I must fill in all the ugly holes, and make it beautiful again.
( ini semacam seperti masalalu saya adalah lukisan yang belum selesai dan sebagai seniman lukisan itu, saya harus mengisi lubang jelek, dan membuatnya indah lagi )

  It’s not that I have been dishonest. It’s just that I loathe reality. For example those nurses they’re wearing next season calvin klein and so am I.
( ini bukan berarti bahwa saya telah tidak jujur. Hanya saja aku benci kenyataan. Untuk contoh mereka perawat yang mereka pakai musim depan calvin klein dan begitu juga saya )

  and the shoes custom huseppe zanotti. I tipped their gause caps to the side like Parisian berets. Because I think it’s romantic and I also believe/think that mint will be very big in fashion next spring.
( dan sepatu kostum hueseppe zanotti, aku memiringkan topi gause mereka ke samping seperti baret paris yang, karena saya pikir itu romantis dan saya juga percaya bahwa mint akan sangat besar dalam mode musim semi berikutnya )

 Check out this nurse on the right she’s got a great ass, bam. The truth is back at the clinic they only wore those funny hats to keep the blood out of their hair.
( periksa perawat ini disebelah kanan dia punya pantat besar, bam. Kebenaran adalah kembali di klinik mereka hanya mengenakan topi-topi lucu untuk menjaga darah keluar dari rambut mereka )

 And that girl on the left she ordered gummy bears and a knife a couple of hours ago, they only gave her the gummy bears. I’d wish they only given me the gummy bears.

( dan gadis sebelah kiri dia mememerintahkan beruang bergetah dan pisau beberapa jam yang lalu, mereka hanya memberinya beruang bergetah. aku  berharap mereka member saya beruang bergetah. )






Suicide solution



 This is for all the people out there who feel the same with me. I wish I could help you.

  Well, who am I ? I’m just human like you. I’m just little girl. do you want to know my secret?

  if you ask my family about me, they would tell you that I’m just a girl who has a cheerful smile and if you ask my friends about me, they would tell you that I’m just ordinary girl who has ordinary life. They don’t even know me.

  Don’t trust people who talk about me because they don’t even know me. They just see me outside. Do you really want to know my secret?
  I’m self harms.

  I cut myself since I was 13 years old and I tried to kill myself when I was 9 years old. I’m very disappointed with my life. Sometimes I think why am I still here? I just want to go.

  I was so lonely and cold. No one understand me like he did. I have someone but he’s so far away from me. And I feel so lonely, I’m so alone cause he’s not here. I promise to myself I will never suicide anymore only if he could stay here with me. He’s like my brother. I love him so much as a brother. I will never find someone like him anymore. I need him. Ken backlund.

  I’m 17 years old now, never try to cut myself anymore. I saw Amanda Todd, she commited to suicide, I saw her video too on youtube, and from that, I know I’m not alone anymore. but something worse is she’s gone. So sad to know that.

  I don’t want people to cut theirself anymore or try to suicide. I know how it’s feel when I’m alone. I know. I really do. But please, don’t do that anymore. I’m just trying not to do that anymore cause I don’t want to see people who love me get hurt because I cut myself.

 If you are self harms. You’re in deep trouble. You feel so alone. Lonely. You think there’s no one understand you. You feel like there’s nobody loves you. Look at me, I’m here for you. we are really the same. I know how you feel. I can feel the way you feel. Maybe life is so much hard for us but take a look, everything would be easy together. You are here for a reasons. Don’t give up. We are here for a reasons.

  If you wanna talk with me. just inbox me on facebook or talk with me on Twitter, or  you can send me email. I would like to help you. solve your problems. And be there for you. think about it. Talk with me, I wish I could make you feel better. If you feel so alone, or you just think that nobody loves you, look at me. I’m your friend now. And I will always be there for you.

 My facebook : Ocha Patricia Lovato Hillenburg
 My Twitter : @ochagaga

With Love,

Ocha patricia lovato hillenburg